The Solitaire Mystery

"Time doesn't pass and Time doesn't tick. We are the ones who pass, and our watches tick. Time eats its way through history as silently and relentlessly as the sun rises in the east and sets in thew west."

The Solitaire Mystery

"..I thought the figments of my imagination had stormed out of my head in protest at being held back by the limitations og my own thought."

Just a Thought

"..I fancy myself in love. But when he's gone, I realize it was just an illusion.."

Gloomy Day

Another day, another sorrow to contemplate
Another day, another sad face to paint
When will it end? Will it ever stop?
When will I learn to smile through the pain?

'Coz another day passed it's finally getting through to me
I've been crying 'till I get to sleep
I still haven't figured out the reason behind the tears
But I keep failing to see through this gloomy day.

Another night, another battle to fight
Another night, another prayer to say
Is this what's left of me? Am I pushing this too deep?
Is there nothing else to do? why can't I let go?

I try to block all the bouts of fears that comes
But when twilight comes the battle ends
No matter how hard I try, I keep losing myself
Through this gloomy day I can't see myself

Anther Dark Day

This is another day that I hope not to remember someday. Well, it's an everyday occurrence to most of us, but not to me. I just lost 350+ messages that is truly important to me. It is very disappointing since i truly saved it because those messages do mean a lot to me. especially the greeting from relatives and friends on my 18th birthday, all of it gone just because my phone happened to have been corrupted by some virus that I know nothing about.

I'm pissed of, but I'm kinda used to feeling that I'm just plainly numb at the moment. I will laugh about it someday, hopefully. But all those memories, the words that I saved on my phone to be treasured and remembered always just suddenly gone through the the drain, as they say.

I'm feeling hallow, but I should have known this would happen. I'm the greatest disappointment unto myself. I really don't have any idea how I can stand ME. but hopefully I get over this as fast i can, because i simply hate the feeling. It's giving me headaches, and I can't think straight, I can't even function right! I'm that upset.



sadly,
Joanie

Nothing In Me

All energy's been sucked up from me. And now, I am left with nothing, I am left empty. Nothing to feel, and nothing to look forward to. No reason to smile or even frown. All emotions have left me, disappointment and sorrow stay close to my core. All expectations are crushed, and every achievement is not rewarded. So what's the point of trying, when every trys you make is a mark against me?

All the dreaming, and scheming for tomorrow has been burnt down to the ashes. And what's left of me? Nothing, really. There's just no use explaining and arguing when no one really understands nor listen. So, here goes to me and, all the dreamers out there: when reality's crushed,there's no longer happily ever after.




-joanie

God's Music

I live for music, music is my life. Each lyrics in a song, each key in it's melody speaks through to me. I worship music, I worship God. He's the Almighty who provided food for my soul. Each word that I write, each symbols I bring to life is the testimony of God's unwavering love.

I listen with my heart, and I feel it in my soul. The meanings and the secrets that is yet to be unraveled. A wounded heart, a joyous soul, are the emotions that are portrayed with a strum of the guitar, a key on the piano. In our Father's hand, He gave us ways to live life. It's more than the words, more than the melody; music is a way for us to reach our Almighty, and a way for me to pour out all the emotions that are too much to kept silent.

God provides us all our needs. He knows so much that He gave gave me my own mouth to speak, and no, it's not part of my face, nor is it the part that utter the words. It's music. It's the speaker, and my mouthpiece, a way for me to be heard. It's the songs and the melodies that speaks fro me. Gos have known way before I was born, that's why God provided what I needed the most. A way to speak more than what my mouth could say the words, a way to listen more than my ears could distinguished the sounds and words, and a way to understand more than my mind can process the information.

So, if ask why music is so important, why my life can't be lived without this vital thing? Because, this is the way for me to communicate to you, and most especially to HIM, the only way for me to show my whole being. Music provides me ways to understand myself, to show the whole world who I AM. That is why living with the noise, the sound and the echoes, is the way I choose to live, for this is the way I am created.

I live for music, music is my life also equals to: I live for God, God is my life.




(an original composition of yurs truly...joei q.g.)