Gloomy Day

Another day, another sorrow to contemplate
Another day, another sad face to paint
When will it end? Will it ever stop?
When will I learn to smile through the pain?

'Coz another day passed it's finally getting through to me
I've been crying 'till I get to sleep
I still haven't figured out the reason behind the tears
But I keep failing to see through this gloomy day.

Another night, another battle to fight
Another night, another prayer to say
Is this what's left of me? Am I pushing this too deep?
Is there nothing else to do? why can't I let go?

I try to block all the bouts of fears that comes
But when twilight comes the battle ends
No matter how hard I try, I keep losing myself
Through this gloomy day I can't see myself

Anther Dark Day

This is another day that I hope not to remember someday. Well, it's an everyday occurrence to most of us, but not to me. I just lost 350+ messages that is truly important to me. It is very disappointing since i truly saved it because those messages do mean a lot to me. especially the greeting from relatives and friends on my 18th birthday, all of it gone just because my phone happened to have been corrupted by some virus that I know nothing about.

I'm pissed of, but I'm kinda used to feeling that I'm just plainly numb at the moment. I will laugh about it someday, hopefully. But all those memories, the words that I saved on my phone to be treasured and remembered always just suddenly gone through the the drain, as they say.

I'm feeling hallow, but I should have known this would happen. I'm the greatest disappointment unto myself. I really don't have any idea how I can stand ME. but hopefully I get over this as fast i can, because i simply hate the feeling. It's giving me headaches, and I can't think straight, I can't even function right! I'm that upset.



sadly,
Joanie